You're a Pioneer
You think about why people do what they do. By understanding the motivation of others, you seek to create a better world. Changing the world around you through personal achievements is your everyday challenge.
The passionate you generates creative ideas. You are an imaginative dreamer. Your preoccupation with the future gives you the mental discipline to stay on track and direct others to do the same.
The centered you can see how to direct your life toward a greater inner peace. You are able to discern exactly what you need. When all is quiet within you recognize just what you want.
The emotional you avoids asking what's missing. Novel adventures seem to appear. Honor your forbidden thoughts. They are merely signposts to exciting new paths you need to follow.
Tuesday, June 29, 2004
Monday, June 28, 2004
21
Holy Crap. I'm 21.
I feel.... Nothing. I just feel kinda old. I see these kids in High School, and they seem so young. I swear it wasnt that long ago that i was in high school, and 21 was OLD. Like 21 year olds were like these old guys who did whatever they wanted, and were so independent. Now that i'm 21, either:
1. Those guys weren't as cool as i thought
2. I am just not cool.
Now that i'm 21, im an ADULT. I have responsibilities, and i'm meant to be contributing to society. In 21 years, what have a I really achieved? I look back at my 21 years and i can't really point any particular great achievments....
*sigh*
It hasn't really seemed that long, the last 21 years. I have yet to see the world, yet to become independent. Yet to move out of home, Yet to start working in a real job. Still unsure of my career, yet to find true love.
21. Whats so special about it anyway. 21 prolly isnt even the best time to be alive. I think the perfect age is 25. At 25, you are not too old, but u have money cos u work, so u can get chicks. At 20 u have no cash even if u are a bit more virile, and at 30, ur over the hill.
25. Thats going to be the one i look forward. Remember to come back here to see what the hell i've achieved when i'm 25.
I feel.... Nothing. I just feel kinda old. I see these kids in High School, and they seem so young. I swear it wasnt that long ago that i was in high school, and 21 was OLD. Like 21 year olds were like these old guys who did whatever they wanted, and were so independent. Now that i'm 21, either:
1. Those guys weren't as cool as i thought
2. I am just not cool.
Now that i'm 21, im an ADULT. I have responsibilities, and i'm meant to be contributing to society. In 21 years, what have a I really achieved? I look back at my 21 years and i can't really point any particular great achievments....
*sigh*
It hasn't really seemed that long, the last 21 years. I have yet to see the world, yet to become independent. Yet to move out of home, Yet to start working in a real job. Still unsure of my career, yet to find true love.
21. Whats so special about it anyway. 21 prolly isnt even the best time to be alive. I think the perfect age is 25. At 25, you are not too old, but u have money cos u work, so u can get chicks. At 20 u have no cash even if u are a bit more virile, and at 30, ur over the hill.
25. Thats going to be the one i look forward. Remember to come back here to see what the hell i've achieved when i'm 25.
Sunday, June 27, 2004
Round and Round and Back Again
Life.
What a strange thing it is. The last week or so, I have spent a lot of time in reflection. I am really suprised that even though I have secured a job before i have even finished uni, that I still feel strangely incomplete. Honestly, besides the initial feeling of euphoria that came with my first offer, I don't feel any different from how I felt beforehand. Do we ever achieve all that we aim for in life? After we achieve one goal, isn't there always another? Even as a christian, until every person in this world has been told the message of Christ, we still have a job to do.
Basically, what I am wondering, when do we ever get that feelings of completeness, of absolute satisfaction that we have achieved everything that we have set out to ahcieve? Or is life simply endlessly aiming at goals that will never be complete? What do you, my faithful readers think? Who the hell reads this anyway? Roll call please :P
Lee's blog questioned the purpose of blogs. I spose the reason for my blog is to just get stuff off my chest, and sometimes it feels better just to order things by writing it out. Also, i think its a good way of getting other ppls opinions on things.
Being the materialistic bastard that i am please check out my new Wish List.
What a strange thing it is. The last week or so, I have spent a lot of time in reflection. I am really suprised that even though I have secured a job before i have even finished uni, that I still feel strangely incomplete. Honestly, besides the initial feeling of euphoria that came with my first offer, I don't feel any different from how I felt beforehand. Do we ever achieve all that we aim for in life? After we achieve one goal, isn't there always another? Even as a christian, until every person in this world has been told the message of Christ, we still have a job to do.
Basically, what I am wondering, when do we ever get that feelings of completeness, of absolute satisfaction that we have achieved everything that we have set out to ahcieve? Or is life simply endlessly aiming at goals that will never be complete? What do you, my faithful readers think? Who the hell reads this anyway? Roll call please :P
Lee's blog questioned the purpose of blogs. I spose the reason for my blog is to just get stuff off my chest, and sometimes it feels better just to order things by writing it out. Also, i think its a good way of getting other ppls opinions on things.
Being the materialistic bastard that i am please check out my new Wish List.
Saturday, June 26, 2004
Gentlemen, Start Your Engines
Yesterday, I had my dodgy Ethics exam, where we had to study 16 topics to only be test on 3 on them. The format was 3 5 minute responses. The first question was free choice, which is fine. That one i prepare earlier. The 2nd question you are to choose, 1/8 cards, the number being your question. I prepared question 1-7 and left out 8 so of course i got 8. Luckily I was allowed to decline, so i got something i liked. Question 3. Choose 3/7 cards and choose one of those 3. I had not prepared questions 1,5,6. And the 3 cards i got, 1,5,6. Gold. Anyway. a pass should not be too hard.
After that, Alby and I went to finalise the details of our 21st venue, For everyone thats coming the details are.
Date: 6th July 2004
Location: 433 Cleveland St. (Cnr of Bourke and Cleveland Street)
Time: 8pm till late
Dress: Smart Casual
Starter Drinks and Nibblers provided
Alby was then whipped and took off like a maniac to meet his woman.
I stood on a street corner and waited for Lee to pick me up. We then took a LONG detour to danny's house, where we suprised him, and demanded that we go out to eat. This led us to go to Gordon, where there is "Rump's and Ribs". Roger called us as we were deciding where to go, and he also joined us on our quest.
Upon arrival, I discovered "The professional Challenge". 3 500g Steaks in one sitting, the 3rd one becomes free, and u get a brick with ur name on the wall. IF you can do it. Ladies and Gentlemen. I tell you know. I will have a crack at this challenge. To warm up, I got one of these steaks. No problem. I wasn't even hungry and afterwards, i did not feel anything close to pain. This was after a HUGE lunch at 3:00 pm too.
Here are some photos of my endeavours on that night.
A close of the 500g beast.
This is before i take on 1/3 of "The Challenge"
Easy. The big lebo guy next to me is Roger. He's a Doctor.
After that we went for a cruise to Krispy Kreme where noone bought anything except Wendy. But it was a great night to catch up with a few of the lads. Definitely will go back to etch myself in history on those walls of Rumps and Ribs.
After that, Alby and I went to finalise the details of our 21st venue, For everyone thats coming the details are.
Date: 6th July 2004
Location: 433 Cleveland St. (Cnr of Bourke and Cleveland Street)
Time: 8pm till late
Dress: Smart Casual
Starter Drinks and Nibblers provided
Alby was then whipped and took off like a maniac to meet his woman.
I stood on a street corner and waited for Lee to pick me up. We then took a LONG detour to danny's house, where we suprised him, and demanded that we go out to eat. This led us to go to Gordon, where there is "Rump's and Ribs". Roger called us as we were deciding where to go, and he also joined us on our quest.
Upon arrival, I discovered "The professional Challenge". 3 500g Steaks in one sitting, the 3rd one becomes free, and u get a brick with ur name on the wall. IF you can do it. Ladies and Gentlemen. I tell you know. I will have a crack at this challenge. To warm up, I got one of these steaks. No problem. I wasn't even hungry and afterwards, i did not feel anything close to pain. This was after a HUGE lunch at 3:00 pm too.
Here are some photos of my endeavours on that night.
A close of the 500g beast.
This is before i take on 1/3 of "The Challenge"
Easy. The big lebo guy next to me is Roger. He's a Doctor.
After that we went for a cruise to Krispy Kreme where noone bought anything except Wendy. But it was a great night to catch up with a few of the lads. Definitely will go back to etch myself in history on those walls of Rumps and Ribs.
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Sooo Bored
I feel so unmotivated to do anything. I'm sposed to be studying ethics right now, and there is so much reading, all for 15 minutes of glory. They are only going to ask 2/14 topics and yeat i have to learn about 12 of the topics anyway. What a bloody waste. I've gotta make notes on the bloody lectures now.
bah. Turned down the bank today. Had a chat with a guy last night that has been in IT for a few years, and he gave me some good advice, hopefully everything will work out in the end. Also spoke to someone at the consulting firm which was quite helpful.
Well its too late togo back now.
Wish me luck!
bah. Turned down the bank today. Had a chat with a guy last night that has been in IT for a few years, and he gave me some good advice, hopefully everything will work out in the end. Also spoke to someone at the consulting firm which was quite helpful.
Well its too late togo back now.
Wish me luck!
Saturday, June 19, 2004
Cos it feels right.
Well, with regard to my choice, i've kinda decided. I'm leaning very much to the consulting company, pending the arrival of the contract. Thank you one and all for all your great advice, you've made a hard decision more easy to live with.
I think the decision came from me deciding to grow up a bit, and not take the easy option all the time. I'm not sure whats gonna happen, but i believe that if i don't give myself this opportunity, i'll regret it for the rest of my life. I want to make something of myself in this lifetime, and this is my first step towards that goal.
Maybe this is my first step towards maturity, becoming a person that is dependable, trustworthy and all that crap...
relationships are such a puzzle. I think as long as we live, we can never really say "i have relationships figured out." I mean. there are just too many variables with too much at stake. I mean there are 2 HUMAN BEINGS involved. It doesnt get any more random than that. Throw in some hormones, crazy emotions, mood swings, that time of the month, a dash of uncertainty, a pinch of insecurity and it all adds up to one big mess. But then there are moments of sheer clarity, when you know that the person you are with is the right one for you, and that all the crap that u have been thru or will go thru is worth it, just for moments like those. It's at these moments when you truly believe that it will all work out in the end...
Some people wonder how i can do things with such little regard for the world. Where is my regard for: hygiene, pride, dignity, self image, ettiquette, etc, etc,.... Why do i do things and say things that seem to so often cross the border into "err.. he shouldnt have done that" territory? I really dont know. I think partly its cos im a bastard who cares about noone but himself, partly cos i dont care bout the opinions of people i dont care about, and partly cos i just do what feels right.
there isnt really a point to this blog, just felt like writing about some of the things i've been thinking..
I think the decision came from me deciding to grow up a bit, and not take the easy option all the time. I'm not sure whats gonna happen, but i believe that if i don't give myself this opportunity, i'll regret it for the rest of my life. I want to make something of myself in this lifetime, and this is my first step towards that goal.
Maybe this is my first step towards maturity, becoming a person that is dependable, trustworthy and all that crap...
relationships are such a puzzle. I think as long as we live, we can never really say "i have relationships figured out." I mean. there are just too many variables with too much at stake. I mean there are 2 HUMAN BEINGS involved. It doesnt get any more random than that. Throw in some hormones, crazy emotions, mood swings, that time of the month, a dash of uncertainty, a pinch of insecurity and it all adds up to one big mess. But then there are moments of sheer clarity, when you know that the person you are with is the right one for you, and that all the crap that u have been thru or will go thru is worth it, just for moments like those. It's at these moments when you truly believe that it will all work out in the end...
Some people wonder how i can do things with such little regard for the world. Where is my regard for: hygiene, pride, dignity, self image, ettiquette, etc, etc,.... Why do i do things and say things that seem to so often cross the border into "err.. he shouldnt have done that" territory? I really dont know. I think partly its cos im a bastard who cares about noone but himself, partly cos i dont care bout the opinions of people i dont care about, and partly cos i just do what feels right.
there isnt really a point to this blog, just felt like writing about some of the things i've been thinking..
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Choices.
As some of you who read this already know, I am currently faced with a choice. It's a choice that, if i get wrong, may haunt me for the rest of my life. The question of career often comes up at some point, and how do you decide what is right for you? I mean, i've done IT for 4 years and im still not sure if this was the best option for me.. what if i had gone and done law at UTS or done some commerce degree?
I guess its something i'll never know, but i spose IT hasnt turned out that bad. I do count myself lucky that I even have the opportunity to choose. On one hand i have a job that promises a degree of stability, a good reputation, and a nice salary package. On the other hand, I have a job where the stability is less, the is global, harder work, longer hours and possibly a better chance for promotion.
In terms of the work environments, im really not sure, i spose thats one thing i'll have to look into, and i'm not even sure what i'll be doing exactly. Ideally, i think i would want to work a month in both places and then decide, but that obviously isnt possible. To make a choice now is a tough call, how do i decide something that may well affect the rest of my life?
Comments/Thoughts appreciated
I guess its something i'll never know, but i spose IT hasnt turned out that bad. I do count myself lucky that I even have the opportunity to choose. On one hand i have a job that promises a degree of stability, a good reputation, and a nice salary package. On the other hand, I have a job where the stability is less, the is global, harder work, longer hours and possibly a better chance for promotion.
In terms of the work environments, im really not sure, i spose thats one thing i'll have to look into, and i'm not even sure what i'll be doing exactly. Ideally, i think i would want to work a month in both places and then decide, but that obviously isnt possible. To make a choice now is a tough call, how do i decide something that may well affect the rest of my life?
Comments/Thoughts appreciated
Monday, June 14, 2004
Results! and Financial Wisdom?
Unlike Lee, who seems to be able to find insightful things to write in his blog, my life seems to be a plain, boring affair, with not much to inspire controversy. I'm not exactly sure who reads this blog, as i've spammed this site to a lot of people, so i'm gonna have to be careful of what i say :P
The results of the last post were that most people were in favour of the GTR, by a ratio of about 4:1. The question now is, where do i find a GTR that is not dead, hell where am i gonna find one at all? and where am i gonna find 30K?
I'll prolly have a larger list of options somewhere in the future....
One point that was raised in my previous post by some people was the financial soundness of buying a car so early on and spending 20-30K on it. I'll tell you all now that i dont have 20-30K to my name, and infact i'll prolly be in debt about 10K after my world trip. This world trip debt i intend to pay back in a year, so that'll be ok. But to take out Another loan, this one im thinking more on the 5 year term, is that really a wise option? In my mind, i know that its not, i shouldnt lock myself into so much debt early on. BUT, once my sister starts driving, the fact of the matter is that i'll need A car, cos 2 cars between the 4 of us is prolly not enough. and seeing as i will need to get a car, i might as well get one that i want right, which means a hoon car, while im still young?
I don't really wanna get some jap hoon car when im 35, that just looks bad. When i'm 35 i want to get nice, expensive european hoon car. I spose also, cars are, and probably will be, something i'll always have a passion for, and why shouldnt i get something that i want?
In my perfect future, my perfect woman will have found me by 25 and by then i'll need to settle down, and all that comes with it. Such as a place to live that isnt my parents house, not doing stupid , life endangering things on old pacific or moony moony... I want to enjoy those things before i commit to a life that is more "mature" (boring). :P
I know that some of you are very against getting the car, and believe that a property is the way to go, and i've discussed this with u and definitely see the benefits of that.. but i've always been a man that has been ruled by his heart more than his mind so i guess we'll have to see what happens..
The results of the last post were that most people were in favour of the GTR, by a ratio of about 4:1. The question now is, where do i find a GTR that is not dead, hell where am i gonna find one at all? and where am i gonna find 30K?
I'll prolly have a larger list of options somewhere in the future....
One point that was raised in my previous post by some people was the financial soundness of buying a car so early on and spending 20-30K on it. I'll tell you all now that i dont have 20-30K to my name, and infact i'll prolly be in debt about 10K after my world trip. This world trip debt i intend to pay back in a year, so that'll be ok. But to take out Another loan, this one im thinking more on the 5 year term, is that really a wise option? In my mind, i know that its not, i shouldnt lock myself into so much debt early on. BUT, once my sister starts driving, the fact of the matter is that i'll need A car, cos 2 cars between the 4 of us is prolly not enough. and seeing as i will need to get a car, i might as well get one that i want right, which means a hoon car, while im still young?
I don't really wanna get some jap hoon car when im 35, that just looks bad. When i'm 35 i want to get nice, expensive european hoon car. I spose also, cars are, and probably will be, something i'll always have a passion for, and why shouldnt i get something that i want?
In my perfect future, my perfect woman will have found me by 25 and by then i'll need to settle down, and all that comes with it. Such as a place to live that isnt my parents house, not doing stupid , life endangering things on old pacific or moony moony... I want to enjoy those things before i commit to a life that is more "mature" (boring). :P
I know that some of you are very against getting the car, and believe that a property is the way to go, and i've discussed this with u and definitely see the benefits of that.. but i've always been a man that has been ruled by his heart more than his mind so i guess we'll have to see what happens..
Friday, June 11, 2004
S13 VS GTR-32 VOTE
Once again, i've managed to waste the entire day.
I woke up, rang some ppl, rang some places for my 21st, and played some war. Some weird movie called "Zero Effect" with Ben Stiller and ID4 President (Bill Pullman?) on it.
Played a bit of war, and now im thinking, where did my day go.
Other things i've been considering is the purchase of a car.
At this stage, I don't have a budget as such yet.
There are a few cars im considering atm.
Silvia S13
What im thinking of doing with this car, is taking out the stock s13 engine and replacing it with the current S15 engine. It'll be quick, but insurance? i dunno if thats going to be possible.
Prices: These are my rough guesses/estimates
S13 = 12,000
S15 Engine = 5000
Mechanic = 1000
Total = Approx 20,000
Nissan Skyline GTR-32
Thats right not some BS Gts-t but a full blown GTR.
Price: 30,000+
Thats all i've been thinking atm...
I spose the purpose of this car is so that i can be a hoon, before i decide to be mature and settle down and crap like that. It's a chance to lose my license and get myself killed, as well as blitzing some punks at the lights. Definitely looking for a RWD, or maybe an AWD, just something that handles, cos as you know, im more interested in the windy stuff than a straight road.
Currently, i am driving this :
suggestions/comments appreciated.
I woke up, rang some ppl, rang some places for my 21st, and played some war. Some weird movie called "Zero Effect" with Ben Stiller and ID4 President (Bill Pullman?) on it.
Played a bit of war, and now im thinking, where did my day go.
Other things i've been considering is the purchase of a car.
At this stage, I don't have a budget as such yet.
There are a few cars im considering atm.
Silvia S13
What im thinking of doing with this car, is taking out the stock s13 engine and replacing it with the current S15 engine. It'll be quick, but insurance? i dunno if thats going to be possible.
Prices: These are my rough guesses/estimates
S13 = 12,000
S15 Engine = 5000
Mechanic = 1000
Total = Approx 20,000
Nissan Skyline GTR-32
Thats right not some BS Gts-t but a full blown GTR.
Price: 30,000+
Thats all i've been thinking atm...
I spose the purpose of this car is so that i can be a hoon, before i decide to be mature and settle down and crap like that. It's a chance to lose my license and get myself killed, as well as blitzing some punks at the lights. Definitely looking for a RWD, or maybe an AWD, just something that handles, cos as you know, im more interested in the windy stuff than a straight road.
Currently, i am driving this :
suggestions/comments appreciated.
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
Blogspot
Bloody hell. This blogspot thing is so hard to use. I am trying to make changes to it , but it seems to be too stupid to update properly. Where is lee when you need him. Someone explain how this thing works? I cant even get a links thing on the right hand side of my page, nor do i seem to be able to change the title.
Go here. Do it. Do it.
Go here. Do it. Do it.
Virgin Post
This is my first blog on this blogger thing. I have jumped ship from xanga, beacuse xanga blows. Who needs Eprops anyway. This is much nicer.
Man, Uni is really pissing me off. If I fail ecommerce cos i didn't do one bloody lab properly its really really gonna PISS ME OFF. It means i will have to do an extra subject next semester. The lectures are a joke, the labs are joke, the lecturer is a joke. What kind of course fails you for one completing one component of it?
I'm gonna see the LIC tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes. Going to uni 2morrow for no classes sucks too. I havent even started studying for exams, and me n alby need to finalise the place for our 21st too. I thought life would be much easier after i got a job, but if anything things seem even more crazy. Who woulda thought GRADUATING would be so hard?
Add that to my mum being on my back cos her computer is dying, cos she did something to it and now demands a reformat.
Man, Uni is really pissing me off. If I fail ecommerce cos i didn't do one bloody lab properly its really really gonna PISS ME OFF. It means i will have to do an extra subject next semester. The lectures are a joke, the labs are joke, the lecturer is a joke. What kind of course fails you for one completing one component of it?
I'm gonna see the LIC tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes. Going to uni 2morrow for no classes sucks too. I havent even started studying for exams, and me n alby need to finalise the place for our 21st too. I thought life would be much easier after i got a job, but if anything things seem even more crazy. Who woulda thought GRADUATING would be so hard?
Add that to my mum being on my back cos her computer is dying, cos she did something to it and now demands a reformat.
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